So it has been a long time since my last post. I began this blog when I was on maternity leave from my job. When my maternity leave was over, I reluctantly began back to work. I, however, was unwilling to even consider putting my newborn baby in daycare, so I convinced the company I worked for to allow me to work from home. I thought it would be great. I would set up one of the rooms in my home as an office, and I would hire a nanny to help me around the house and with the kids while I was on the clock. I would be able to continue breast feeding on demand, and I could still spend time with my kids throughout the day.
That is NOT how it went down.
The nanny I hired ended up being terrible. She sat around all day, half asleep while my toddler sat in front of the TV or played video games on her smart phone. She completely disregarded my one request: Keep my son playing and engaged, preferably outdoors, the majority of the day. I didn't ask her to clean my house, or even clean up after my son. I didn't ask her to do laundry, or even to make lunch. I did all of that still. All I wanted her to do was play with my son, get him to explore our 11 acres, do his chores, play with the dogs, paint a picture, anything other than TV and video games. And what did she do? TV and video games of course.
After a few weeks of this, the stress got intense. I couldn't focus on my work, knowing that my son was basically being a zombie all day. I also very quickly realized how impossible it is to type an email while holding an 8 week old. I couldn't sleep. I dreaded the mornings. I rushed all around my house constantly, trying to juggle taking care of my house, takings care of my job, and taking care of my kids, because my nanny was completely useless. And then it happened... My job went back on their word. They decided they wanted me to work in the office at least half of the time. What was I to do? I have never had a good experience with a day care, and this nanny obviously wasn't cutting it. I tried to go into the office and work a couple times. I left both of my children with the nanny at my home. My husband was always home, but since he works nights he was sleeping. At least he was there though if something happened. But I was miserable. I missed my baby, and I missed my big boy. My breasts ached, and I was kept so busy by my bosses that I never got an opportunity to pump.
To make a long story short, I no longer work there, and that nanny no longer works for me. I left that stress in the past, and have never been happier. I have been back in the groove with my children and my home for six months now, and we have made lots of improvements and additions to our homestead and farm! I sure do have a lot to fill you all in on! It's time to re-group, and start anew with posting here, and organizing my goals and life. Stay tuned!
